I wish I could express
The language of thought
It comes out as sound sometimes
Undefinable in rational space
The device in my head
Knows more than I do
The conscious mind plays a minor role
More aware of resistance
What a dream I slip into
Connections made, inexpressible
Where is home
When all is chaos
Infinitely complex order
Indescribable
Always too stressed out
Attempting to explain
This place I try to reach
Yet I am so afraid
Of whatever it is I want
Ever yearning for a deeper certainty

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A positive life
We attempt to reach
By wiping the slate clean

Assimilation constant
Subconsciously organized
Come face to face with
To such a degree as possible
In the process of letting go
Facts be facts
Only private yearning for the past
In fondness, not regret of loss
The moment is still here, progressing
As it was when the day was new
The eye was first opened
The immensity frightened
The depth ever beckons

So busy with our lives
Let reality flow by
To catch the messages
Assume we're on course
By releasing while holding on

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My cult of one
Nobody can join
For I am the only member
Ever seeking gnosis
The lover not physical
Surrounding, sustaining
Passage of moments
Personal encyclopedia of experience
Captured in emotional triggers
The flow of data
Raises or lowers state
Depending on attention
Tools to awareness
Attempt to comprehend the sublime
Fill the space with love
Puzzles solved by letting go
But not into dogma
Feel myself in every direction
Is and Why go on vacation
Morphing matrix of impressions
Remember to breathe

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