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Clouds without Water
by
Aleister Crowley
Clouds they are without water, carried about of winds; trees whose fruit
withereth, without fruit, twice dead, plucked up by the roots; raging waves
of the sea, foaming out their own shame; wandering stars, to whom is
reserved the blackness of darkness for ever. Jude 12, 13.
Clouds without Water
Edited from a Private M.S.
by the
Rev. C. VEREY
(ALEISTER CROWLEY)
LONDON
PRIVATELY PRINTED
For circulation among ministers of religion.
1909
CONTENTS
Preface i
The Manuscript ix Dieu libre et libertin xi
A Quean of the Quality
A Terzain
I.-The Augur
II.-The Alchemist
III.-The Hermit
IV.-The Thaumaturge
V.-The Black Mass
VI.-The Adept
VII.-The Vampire
VIII.-The Initiation
Notes
PREFACE
BY THE REVD. C. VEREY
" Receiving in themselves that recompense of their error which was meet. "
So wrote the great apostle nearly two thousand years ago; and surely in
these latter days, when Satan seems visibly loosed upon earth, the words
have a special and dreadful significance even for us who-thanks be to God
for His unspeakable mercy ! -- are washed in the blood of the Lamb and freed
from the chains of death-and of hell. Surely this terrible history is a true
Sign of the Times. We walk in the last days, and all the (v) abominations
spoken of by the apostle are freely practised in our midst. Nay ! they are
even the boast and the defence of that spectre of evil, Socialism. The awful
drama which the unhappy wretch who penned these horrible utterances has to
unfold is alas ! too common. Its study may be useful to us as showing the
logical outcome of Atheism and Free Love. For the former, death; for the
latter, the death-in-life of a frightful, loathsome, shameful disease.
"Receiving in themselves that recompense of their error which was meet". It
may seem almost incredible to many of us, perhaps safely established in our
comfortable cures, among a simple and Godfearing people, that any man should
have been found to pen the disgusting blasphemies, the revolting
obscenities, which defile these pages. Nor can it be denied that a certain
power of expression, even at times a certain felicity of (vi)
phrasing-always, indeed, a profound dramatic feeling-is to be found in these
poems. Alas ! that we should be compelled to write the words ! That an art
essentially spiritual, an art dignified by the great names of Gascoigne
Mackie, Christina Rossetti, Alfred Tennyson, George Herbert, should here be
prostituted to such " ignoble use". Truly the corruption of the best is the
lowest-corruptio optimi pessima. Nor can one gleam of Hope, even in the
infinite mercy of our loving Father, tinge with gold the leprous gloom of
our outlook. These clouds without water have no silver lining. The unhappy
man need not have feared that the poor servants of God would claim him as
repentant, though surely we would all have shed the last drop of our blood
to bring him to the grace of God. Alas ! it was not to be. The devilish
precautions of this human fiend excluded all such possibilities. He died as
he had lived, no doubt. Alas! no doubt. (vii) Where is now that spotted soul
? There is but one appalling answer to the question. In the "place prepared
for the devil and his angels "; for " he that believeth not is condemned
already ". Not even in that modern evasion, the plea of insanity, can we
find any hope. Nothing is clearer than that these wretched victims of Satan
were in full possession of their faculties to the last moment. Surely the
maniacal violence of their unhallowed lust and hate is no ground for pity
but for reprobation. When our blessed Lord was on earth He made no excuses
for those who were possessed of devils. He took this simply as a fact-and He
healed them. It is only the shocking atheism and materialism of modern
science that, in an insane endeavour to whittle away the miracles of our
blessed Saviour, has sought to include "possession" in the category of
disease. (viii) Our Lord had no doubts as to the reality of demoniacal
possession; why should we, His humble servants, truckle to the Christless
cant of an atheistical profession? The facts of this shocking case are
familiar enough in the drawing-rooms of the West End. Both the characters in
the story were persons of considerable education and position. On this
account, and because a statement of the truth (however guarded) would have
compromised persons of high rank, and was in any case too disgusting to
publish in the press, the tragedy has not-one is glad to say in these days
of yellow prurience-become matter for public comment. But the wife of the
man, driven to drink and prostitution by the inhuman cruelty of his
mistress-this modern worse than Lucrezia Borgia or Mdme de Brinvilliers-and
the fiance of the girl betrayed and ruined by her machinations, still haunt
the purlieus of the (ix) Strand, the one an unfortunate of the lowest order,
the other a loafer and parasite upon the ghouls that traffic in human flesh
and shame. Thus we see evil reproducing itself, spreading like an incurable
cancer throughout society from one germ of infidelity and unhallowed lust. I
may perhaps be blamed for publishing, even in this limited measure, such
filthy and blasphemous orgies of human speech (save the mark) but I am
firmly resolved (and I believe that I have the blessing of God on my work)
to awake my fellow-workers in the great vineyard to the facts of modern
existence. Unblushing, the old Serpent rears its crest to the sky;
unashamed, the Beast and the Scarlet Woman chant the blasphemous litanies of
their fornication. Surely the cup of their abominations is nigh full !
Surely we who await the Advent of our blessed Lord are emboldened to trust
that this frenzy (x) of wickedness is a sure sign of the last days; that He
will shortly come-whose fan is in His hand, wherewith He shall thoroughly
purge His floor-and take us His saints-however failing and humble we may
be-to be with Him in His glory for ever and ever, while those who have
rejected Him burn in eternal torment, with wailing and gnashing of teeth, in
that Lake of Fire and Brimstone from which-thank God ! He in His infinite
mercy hath delivered us. But until that happy day we are bound to work on
silently and strenuously in His service. May the perusal of these atrocious
words enlighten us as to the very present influence of Satan in this
world-naked and unashamed. May it show us the full horror of the Enemy with
whom we are bound to fight; may it reveal his dispositions, so that under
our great Captain we may again and again win the Victory. It is my prayerful
hope that He who turn (xi) evil to good may indeed use to His glory even
this terrible and wicked book. It has cost me much to read it; to meditate
on it has been a terrible shame and trial; to issue it, much against my own
poor human judgment, in obedience to His will, has been a still harder task;
were it permitted me to ask a recompense, I would ask none but that of His
divine blessing upon my fellow-labourers in His great field.
C. V.
The Manuscript
We dedicate this record of our
loves
to
the memory of
MARGUERITE PORRETE
I
Dieu libre et libertin, sacrifice et hommage; De ma virginite recevez les
louanges! Votre empire triomphe sur mon pucelage, Paradis de la boue, empire
de la fange! Dieu libre et libertin, sacrifice et hommage.
II
Chez vous les crimes infames ne sont que des blagues; Chez vous, mon Dieu,
les dieux ne sont que des idees. Frappez votre esclave! Ah! le sang qui
coule en vagues La comblera de joie, eventree et pamee. Chez vous les crimes
infames ne sont que des blagues.
III
Satyre se moquant des femmes legitimes, La mort est une blague, et l'amour
trop comique. Vous etes un dieu! pour vous les seules choses intimes, Dieu
qui m'a baise tant! sont les choses cosmiques. Satyre se moquant des femmes
legitimes!
IV
Dieu qui m'a baise tant! Baisez-moi donc encore! Vous m'avez rendu mas chere
virginite. C'est pourquoi follement sous vous, ah! je me tords Eros inconnu,
masque illisible et dore! Dieu qui m'a baise tant! Baisez-moi donc encore!
V
Vous qui vous dressez sur l'abime de l'enfer, Vous dont les plumes
gravissent le haut des cieux, A moi la bouche d'or, a moi le v.. de fer! A
l'ame, au corps! je suis la deesse des dieux-Et je me dresse sur l'abime de
l'enfer.
A
Quean of the Quality being the Quatorzains of a Quietist
A TERZAIN
King of myself, I labour to espouse An equal soul. Alas ! how frail I find
The golden light within the gilded house. Helpless and passionate, and weak
of mind! Lechers and lepers! -- as all ivy cling, Emasculate the healthy
bole they haunt. Eternity is pregnant; I shall sing Now-by my power-a spirit
grave and gaunt Brilliant and selfish, hard and hot, to flaunt Reared like a
flame across the lampless west, Until by love or laughter we enchaunt,
Compel ye to Kithairon's thorny crest-Evoe ! Iacche ! consummatum est.
I
The Augur
I
Look! Look! upon the tripod through the smoke Of slain things kindled, and
fine frankincense. Look-deep beyond the phantoms these evoke Are sightless
halls where spirit stifles sense. There do I open the old book of Fate
Wherein They pictured my delight and me Flushed with the dawn of rapture
laureate And leaping with the laughter of ecstacy. Mine eyes grow aged with
that hieroglyph Of doom that I have sought : the fatal end. That which is
written is written, even if Great Zeus himself-great Zeus ! -- were to
befriend. Even in the spring of the first floral kiss : "No happy end the
gods have given for this ".
II
Save death alone ! I see no happy end, No happy end for this divine
beginning. Child ! let us front a fate too ill to mend, Take joy in
suffering for the sake of sinning. Ay ! from your lips I pluck the purple
seed Of that pomegranate sleek Persephone Tasted in hell ; the irrevocable
deed I do, and it is done. Naught else could be For us, the chosen of so
severe a god To act so high a tragedy, the elect To suffer so, and so
rejoice, the rod And scourge of our own shame, the gilt and decked Oxen that
go to our own sacrifice At our own consecrated shrine of vice.
III
Over the desert ocean of distress We reach pale eager hands that quiver and
bleed With life of these our hearts that surge and stress In agony of the
meditated deed. For in the little coppice by the gate Wherein I drew you shy
and sly, and kissed Your lips, your hushed "I love you" smooth and straight
Sweeping to wrap us in the glittering mist Of hell that holds us-even there
I heard The lacerating laugh of fate ring out, The dog-faced god pronounce
the mantic word, And saw the avengers gather round about Our love. The
Moirae neither break nor bend; The Erinyes hunt us to-no happy end.
IV
Our love is like a glittering sabre bloodied With lives of men ; upsoared
the sudden sun ; The choral heaven woke ; the aethyr flooded All space with
joy that you and I were one. But in the dark and splendid dens of death
Arose an echo of that jewelled song : There swept a savour of polluted
breath From the lost souls, the unsubstantial throng That tasted once a
shadow of our glory And turn them in the evil house to adore The godhead of
our sin, the tragic story We have set ourselves to write, the sombre score
Our daggers carve with poesy sublime Upon the roof tree of despair and crime
!
V
As we read Love and Death in either's eyes, We see the cool mild splendour
of the dawn Damned by some tragic throw of murderous dice To slash like
lightning over lea and lawn Jagged and horrible across the curtain Of
heaven, writing ruin, ruin-we see Our certain joy marred with a doubly
certain Soul-shattering anguish.-Bah ! To you and me Such loathing, such
despair are little things. We are afloat on the flood-tide of lust-A lust
more spiritual than life, that stings Till death and hell dissolve i' the
aftergust. So ? But the Gods avert their faces, bend Their holy brows, and
see-no happy end.
VI
Thus shall men write upon our cenotaphs : " Traitor and lecher ! murderous
and whore ! " The rat-faced god that lurks in heaven laughs; There is
rejoicing on the immortal shore. The angels deem us hurled form the above,
Burnt out of bliss, blasted from sense and thought, Barred from the beauties
of celestial love And branded with the annihilating Naught. O ! pallid
triumph ! empty victory ! When we sit smiling on the infernal thrones
Starred with our utmost gems of infamy, Builded with tears, and cushioned
with the groans Of these the victims of our joys immense-Child ! I aspire to
that bad eminence !
VII
Hell hath no queen ! But, o thou red mouth curving In kisses that bring
blood, shall I be alone? What of the accomplice of these deeds unswerving?
Will not your dead hot kisses match mine own? As here your ardours brand me
bone and marrow Biting like fire and poison in my veins, Shall you not there
still ply your nameless harrow. Mingle a cup from those our common pains To
intoxicate us with an extreme pleasure Keener than life's, more dolorous
than death's Till these infernal blisses pass the measure Of heaven's
imagined by the tremulous breaths Or silly saints and silly sinners, swaying
From scraps of blasphemy to scraps of praying?
VIII
You love me ? trite and idle word to darken (With all its glow) the
splendour of our sun ! No soul of heaven or hell may hearken The unbearable
device that we have done. Nor may Justine nor Borgia understand Nor
Messalina nor Maria guess The infernal chorus swelling darkly grand That
echoed us our everlasting ` Yes ! ` Nor shall the Gods perceive to damn or
praise The deed that shakes their essence into dust, Disrupts their dreams,
divides their dreary days. Supreme, abominable, rides our lust Armed in the
panoply of brazen youth And strength, since, if we are Hell's, Hell's worm
is Truth.
IX
We are still young enough to take delight In wickedness for wickedness' sole
sake. Eve did not fall because she knew aright The fruit an apple, but the
snake a snake. Nor shall we sink among the foolish throng That seek an end,
but rise among the few Who do the strong thing because they are strong And
care not why they do, so that they do. Therefore we wear our dread iniquity
Even as an aureole therefore we attain Measureless heights of nameless
ecstasy, Measureless depths of unimagined pain Mingled in one initiating
kiss That those dissolve in the athanor of this.
X
We tread on earth in our divine disdain And crush its blood out into purple
wine, Staining our feet with hot and amorous stain, The foam involving all
the sensual shrine Of love whose godhead dwells upon your mouth Wherein the
kisses clustering overflow With brimming ardour of the new sin's growth Till
round us all the poisonous blossoms blow, And all the cruel things and
hideous forms Of night awake and revel in our revel, While in us rage the
devastating storms Whose dam is Luxury and their sire the devil... It is
well seen, however things intend, The Gods have given for this-no happy end.
XI
Crown me with poppy and hibiscus ! crown These brows with nightshade,
monkshood and vervain ! Let us anoint us with the unguents brown That waft
our wizard bodies to the plain Where in the circle of unholy stones The
unconsecrated Sabbath is at height ; Where the grim goat rattling his skulls
and bones Makes music that dissolves the dusk of night Into a ruddy fervour
from the abyss Such as I see (when cunning can surprise Our Argus foe and
give us leave to kiss) Within your deep, your damned, your darling eyes. Ay
! to the Sabbath where the crowned worm Exults, with twisted yard and
slime-cold sperm.
XII
There gods descend ; there devils rise. We dance, Dance to the madness of
the waning moon, Write centuries of murder in a glance, Chiliads of rape in
one unearthly tune. There is the sacrament of sin unveiled And there the
abortion of Demeter eaten, The potion of black Dione distilled, The measure
of Pan by whirling women beaten. These are but symbols, and our souls the
truth ; These sacraments, and we the gods of them ; The sabbath incense
curls to us to soothe Our spleen, engarlands us, a diadem For that
unutterable deed that hurled Us, flaming thunderbolts ! against the world.
XIII
There needs not ask the obscure oracle Whereto these dire imaginations tend.
We read this sigil in the dust of Hell : " The Gods have given for this no
happy end. What end should we desire, who grasp the gain We have despoiled
from everlasting time, Who gather sunshine from the iciest rain And turn the
dullest prose to rhythm and rime? Think you we cannot warm our hands and
laugh Even at the fire that scatheth adamant? Think you we shall not knead
the utmost chaff Into a bread worth Heaven's high sacrament And from the
bitter dregs of Hell's own wine Distil a liquor utterly divine ?
XIV
Behold ! I have said. The destiny obscure Of this our deed obscure we shall
not skry. We know " no happy end ! "-but we endure, Abiding as the Pole Star
in the sky. You mix your life in mine-then soul in soul We shoot forth,
meteors, travelling on and on Far beyond Space to some dark-glimmering goal
Where never sun or star hath risen or shone ; Where we shall be the evil
light beyond time, Beyond space, beyond thought, supreme in deathless pang ;
Nor shall a sound invade that hall of crime, Only the champing of the
insatiate fang Of the undying worm our love, fast wed Unto-no happy end.
Behold ! I have said.
II
The Alchemist
I
Love is sore wounded by the dragon shame, O maiden o' mine ! its life in
jets of blood Languidly ebbs. I see the gathering flame Aspire-expire. I see
the evil flood Of time roll even and steady over it, Bearing our God to the
accurst ravines ; Bearing our God to the abysmal pit Whence never a God may
rise. The wolfish queens Of earth have set their faces stern and sour
Against us ; we are bidden to cease-to cease ! Ha ! how eternity laughs down
their hour, Dragoons their malice with its dominant peace. We are forbidden
to love-as one who tries At noontide to forbid the sun to rise.
II
There is an alchemy to heal the hurt Done to our love by shame the dragon of
ill With his allies the fear, that wars begirt With clouds, and that sad
sceptic in the will That sneaks within our citadel, that steals The keys and
opens stealthily the gates When we are sleeping, when the dawn conceals Its
earliest glimmer and our blood abates Awhile its tide ! O mystic maiden o'
mine, Did I not warn you of the insulting foes ? Blind worms that writhe for
envy, pious swine That gnash their teeth to espy the gold and rose Out
flaming like the dawn when kiss for kiss Passed and for ever sealed our bale
and bliss.
III
Behold ! the elixir for the weeping wound ! Is it that wine that Avallaunius
poured From the Red Cup when fair Titania swooned Before the wrath of her
insulted lord ? Is it the purple essence that distilled From Jesu's side
beneath the invoking spear ? Or that pale vase that Proserpina filled From
wells of her sad garden, cold and clear And something overbitter and
oversweet ? Or in the rout of Dionysus did Some Bassarid prophesy in her
holy heat On such a draught as I for you have hid In this the Graal of mine
enchaunted shrine To pour for you, o mystic maiden o' mine ?
IV
Lola. The name is like the amorous call Of some bright-bosomed bird in
bowers of blue. Tis like the great moon-crested waterfall With hammering
heart. `Tis like the rain of dew That quires to the angel stars. `Tis like a
bell Rung by an holy anchoret to summon Out of the labyrinths of heaven and
hell Some grave, majestic, and deep-breasted woman To bring her naked body
shining, shining With flowers of heaven or flames of Phlegethon Into his
hermit cell, her love entwining Into his life with spells that murmur on
Black words ! For one thing be you sure the same My wine is as the music of
your name !
V
Maiden. Believe me, mystic maiden o' mine, That title shall assure the
throne of heaven To you-the more so that your love divine That maidenhood to
me hath freely given ? Nor have I touched the ark with hands unholy, Nor
with unsaintly kisses soiled the shrine : Nepenthe, amaranth, vervain, myrrh
and moly Are deathless blooms about our chaste design. Not you resisting,
but myself refraining, Gives us the eternal spring, the elixir rare, That
mage and sage have sought, and uncomplaining Never attained. We found it
early where The Gods find children. Maiden o' mine, be sure My wine shall be
as pure as you are pure !
VI
Sweet. O my sweet, if all the heavenly portion Of nectar were in one blue
ocean poured Their fine quintessence were a vile abortion Bitter and flat,
foul, stagnant and abhorred Should one compare it with the tiniest tithe Of
one soft glance your eyes on me might shed, One gesture of your body limber
and lithe, One smile-the sudden white, the abiding red ! Then-should one
slander you in idiot verse By speaking of the subtle seven-fold sweetness
Your lips can answer me, all fate to amerce In one mad kiss in all its mad
completeness ? O Gods and Muses ! give me grace for this To match my wine
for sweet with Lola's kiss.
VII
Mine. `Tis impossible, but so it is, My mouth is Lola's and my Lola's mine
When in the trance, the death we call a kiss, Earth is done down, and the
immanent divine Exists ! Impossible ! no mortal yet Suffered such bliss from
the all-envious gods ; Whence we may guess we are immortal, set From the
beginning over the periods Of ages, set on thrones of jasper and pearl,
Wreathed with the lilies of Eternity, While on our brow the starry clusters
curl Like flashes from the sunkissed jewelry, Dew on the flowers our
garlands. Ay ! you are mine, And mine as you are shall I pour the wine.
VIII
Now I have told you all the ingredients That go to make the elixir for our
shame. Already make the fumes their spired ascents ; The bubbles burst in
tiny jets of flame. And you and I are half-intoxicated (I hid the heart of
madness in my verse) Therewith, like Maenads ready to be mated Before the
Lord of bassara and thyrse. Yea ! we are lifted up ! Crested Kithairon
Shakes his black mane of pines, and roars for prey. Heave all his bristling
flanks of barb,d iron ! Flesh they red hunger on the bleeding day, O fang,d
night ! till from they mother maw We wrench the lion child of wonder and awe
!
IX
This wine is sovereign against all complaints. This is the wine the great
king-angels use To inspire the souls of sinners and of saints Unto the deeds
that win the world or lose. One drop of this raised Attis from the dead ;
One drop of this, and slain Osiris stirs ; One drop of this ; before young
Horus fled Thine hosts, Typhon ! -- this wine is mine and hers Ye Gods that
gave it ! not in trickling gouts, But from the very fountain whence `tis
drawn Gushing in crystal jets and ruby spouts From the authentic throne and
shrine of dawn. Drink it ? Ay, so ! and bathe therein-and swim Out to the
wide world's everlasting rim !
X
To drink one drop thereof is to be drunk. The firm feet stagger, and the
world spins round; The fair speech stammers-nature's God hath sunk Into some
trivial place of the profound. But he who is drunk thereon is wholly sane,
Being wholly mad ; he moves with space-wide wings Sees not a world-engulphed
in the inane ! Nor needs a voice for speech, because he sings. What then of
them who are most drunk together As you and I are, mystic maiden o' mine,
Beyond Dionysus and his tedious tether, Beyond Kithairon and his topmost
pine? Why, even now I am drunk who scribble amiss These lines, not
thinking-save of your last kiss !
XI
So Lola ! Lola ! Lola ! Lola ! peals, And Lola ! Lola ! Lola ! Lola ! echoes
back, Till Lola ! Lola ! Lola ! Lola ! reels The world in a dance of woven
white and black Shimmering with clear gold greys as hell resounds With Lola
! Lola ! Lola ! and heaven responds With Lola ! Lola ! Lola ! Lola ! --
swounds All light to clustered dazzling diamonds, And Lola ! Lola ! Lola !
Lola ! rings Ever and again on these inchaunted ears, And Lola ! Lola ! Lola
! Lola ! swings My soul across to those inchaunted spheres Where Lola is God
and priest and wafer and wine-O Lola ! Lola ! mystic maiden o' mine !
XII
I think the hurt is healed, for (by the law That forms our being) you must
suffer as I, Hunger as I, rejoice as I, withdraw Into the same far
transcendental sky Of this initiated rapture. Hurt Of shame for me is past,
beholding Gods Only a little part of me, and dirt Such as men fling and
women paste, no odds. Moreover, by the subtle and austere Vintage we drain,
albeit we drain the lees, There is no headache for the morning drear, No
fluctuant in our tideless ecstasies-Whereby, o maiden o' mine, the runic
rime Tells me we have ree'd the riddle of old Time.
XIII
Never, o never shall I call you bride ! Never, o never shall I draw you down
Unto my kisses by the dim bedside Bathing my body in the choral crown, Your
comet hair ! Nor smooth our shimmering skins Each to the other and mount the
sacred stair Even from the lesser to the greater sins Up to the throne where
sits the royal and rare Vision of Pan. O never shall I raise This oriflamme,
and lead the hope forlorn Up to the ruining bloody breach, to daze Death's
self with pangs too blissful to be borne. No ! dear my maid. A maiden as you
be You may be all your lily life, for me.
XIV
Alas ! the appointed term is sternly set Inviolable to this our colloquy.
For though you be afar, my Lola, yet You have been with me, whispering to
me. I bow my head to write, and on the nape O' th' neck I feel your lips. I
raise my head To dream-your mouth achieves its luscious rape-I fall back-you
are on me-I am dead. Could it be better ? For I surely know That you will
follow me adown the deep When I lay pen and paper by, and go Into the ardent
avenues of sleep : -- There also will we drink the appeasing wine, Lola, my
Lola, mystic maiden o' mine !
III
The Hermit
I
Lonely, o life, art thou when circumstance Occult or open keeps us twain
apart ! Lamenting through the dreary day there dance Anaemic thoughts ; the
bruised and bloodless heart Beats as if tired of life, as I am tired Who all
these days have never seen your face, Nor touched the body that my soul
desired, Nor have inhaled the perfume of the place That you make sweet-black
dogs of doubt and fear Howl at my heels while care plies whip and spur,
Driving me down to the dull damned dead sphere Where is no sight or sound or
scent of Her Our Lady Dian, but where hag and witch Hecat bestrides her
broom-the bestial bitch !
II
Like to a country in the interdict Whose folk lack all the grace of
eucharist, My heart is ; all the pangs its foes inflict Are naught to this
unutterable mist Of absence. Where s the daily sacrament, The glad devouring
of your body and blood, Sweet soul of Christ, my Lola ? I am rent Even as
the demons from the face of God When they would peer into beatitude. I am
barred from the incalculable bliss, The unutterable chrism, the soul s food,
Of you, your gaze, your word, your touch, your kiss O Gods, Fates,
Fiends-whoever plays the Pope ! Lift up your curse-leave me not without hope
!
III
My soul is like the savage upland plains Of utmost wretchedness in Tartary.
No strength of sun, no fertilizing rains ! Only a bitter wind, intense and
dry, Cuts over them. Hardly the memory stands Of one who travels there ; his
pain forgets The golden bliss of all those other lands Where he was happy.
So the blizzard frets Its sterile death across my soul, and chills All hope
of life even from the rare sad seeds It blows from sunnier vales and happier
hills, Though at the best they be but worthless weeds. I stand-I scan the
infinite horizon Of hopeless hope-yet I must travel on.
IV
When for an hour we met (to call it meeting Barred by the bleak ice of
society From even the lover s glance, the lover s greeting. The intonation
that means ecstasy !) One ray of saddest gladness lit the dusk : This-that I
saw you pale and suffering, A goddess armed with myrrh instead of musk, With
lips too cold to pray, too dry to sing. For by that sigh I knew the adorable
Truth, that you wept in secret over me. Your silence was the dumb despair of
hell ; Who read it right read love. Strange cruelty, That who would die for
you, sweet murderess, Should find his comfort in your bitterness !
V
For there you sat, you smiled, you chatted on, Myself alone perceiving the
keen cold Sword at your heart, the speechless malison That trembled on your
tongue, the while it trolled Its senseless clamour of necessary wit, And
woke the senseless necessary laughter, The senseless necessary reply to it,
The long sad silly commonplace thereafter. Suppose we had risen, as quick as
thought, and stood And caught and kissed-what could the storm have done
Worse than this sickening fog of solitude ? Who can do worse than take away
the sun ? They better had take care, I think. One day We shall go mad, and
take ourselves away.
VI
Yet we may hope ; for this, and not from fear, We kept our counsel ; we may
hope anon To turn the corner of the evil year And find a brave new
springtide coming on. Meanwhile by stealth I may invoke your shade And clasp
you to me, though it be a dream Or little more, a vision from the Maid That
rules by Phlegethon's sepulchral stream. Nay ! it is more : by magic art
compel (My soul !) my maiden s body to appear Visible, tangible, enjoyable
Even to the senses of the amorous seer, Whose demon ministers through the
gulphs and glooms Convey his mistress on their meteor plumes.
VII
More, I will visit you, forlorn who lie Crying for lack of me ; your very
flesh Shall tingle with the touch of me as I Wrap you about with the
ensorcelled mesh Of my fine body of fire : oh ! you shall feel My kisses on
your mouth like living coals, And piercing like an arrow of barbed steel The
arcane caress that shall unite our souls. Till, when I see you next, I shall
have doubt Whether your pallor be from love distressed Or from the
exhaustion of the age-long bout Of love you had of me upon your breast Held
hard all night, with mouths that never ceased To engorge love s single
sacramental feast.
VIII
One writes, and all is easy. Drop the pen, And Paradise is blotted out ! The
earth, Fair as it seemed, becomes a hideous den, And all life's promises of
little worth. Like to a mother whose one child is dead, I wander, aching for
the sight, the sound. The touch-familiar, now inhibited. The child is under
ground-is under ground-The child is under ground-who comforts her ? The
bastard fool her priest ? The useless clod Her husband ? The accursed
murderer Her God ? -- if so be that she hath a God. Foul curses from my
life's envenomed flood Break in a vomit of black foam and blood.
IX
As one entranced by dint of cannabis, Whose sense of time is changed past
recognition, Whether he suffer woe or taste of bliss, He loses both his
reason and volition. He says one word-what countless ages pass ! He walks
across the room-a voyage as far As the astronomer's who turns his glass On
faintest star-webs past the farthest star And travels thither in the spirit.
So It seems impossible to me that ever The sands of our ill luck should run
so low That splendidly success should match endeavour ; Yet it must be, and
very soon must be : For I believe in you, and you in me.
X
To-morrow is the day when Christ our Lord Rose from the dead ; therefore,
the shops are shut. Men may get drunk, or syphilized, or bored, Robbed,
murdered, or regenerated, -- but, But they must not get letters, be amused,
Or do a thing they want to do till Monday ; Whence comes the
universally-diffused And steady popularity of Sunday. And yet I grumble !
any other day I might receive a message from my Lola : " The siege is
raised. Meet me as usual ! " Nay ! For me the sofa and Verlaine or Zola,
Till Christ's affair is over, and the town Runs a young resurrection of its
own.
XI
Were you a shop-girl and myself a clerk, Things might be better-we could
surely meet With due umbrellas in the dripping Park And decorously spoon
upon a seat. This is the penalty one pays for rank And fortune ! Ah, my
Lola, I am dying And mad-or would God play me such a prank As to dictate
such verse while you are crying ? Let me too weep, weep on ! weep out my
soul, Weep till the world of sense was wept away And, dead, I reached you at
the glimmering goal Whither you had outrun me ! Weep, I say, Weep! It is
better. Thus one earns a chrism-Who ever gained one by cheap cynicism ?
XII
Wherefore I duly invoke the God Of Tears that he may mingle yours and mine,
Water therewith Life's unresponsive sod, And raise therefrom some sickly
growth of vine Whose grape shall yield a bitter draught of woe Fit for the
assuaging of a deadlier thirst Than Attis knew or Abelard : even so I suffer
; than some lovely nun accurst Who beats her breast upon the convent bars,
Even so you suffer : let its draught restore All lovers (that invoke the sad
cold stars) Unto good luck : then you and I once more (Though still we were
forbidden word and kiss) Might find a certain happiness in this.
XIII
For truth it is, my maiden, we have had Already more than our fair share of
pleasure. The good god Dionysus ivy-clad Hath poured us out a draught of
brimming measure. Let us then rather give the lustiest praise Our throats
can sound than pray for further favour ; Even though our sorrow, eating up
our days, Devour us also. Gods enjoy the savour Of Man's thanksgivings ;
from their holy place Beholding mortals, they are wroth to see Tears; they
rejoice to see a proud glad face Master of itself and of eternity. Let us,
reflecting on how dear we love, Shew laughter and courage to the gods above
!
XIV
Now then the fickle song hath changed and shifted Round from the dirge to
the primordial paean. Lola ! my Lola ! let our voices lifted Proclaim to all
the Masters of the Aeon : We love each other ! let them meditate Awhile on
that glad cry, and you will see How they consult, and smile, and hint to
fate That none can mar so holy a destiny. We love each other ! loud and glad
; let heaven And all the gods be deafened ! Sing, O sing ! We love each
other! through the storm-cloud riven Let the wild anthem of our triumph ring
! Hark ! the glad chorus as we drag the stars In chains behind our mad
colossal cars !
IV
The Thuamaturge
I
Then the Lord answered me out of the wind Out of the whirlwind did He answer
me; Gird up thy loins now like a man, and find If thou canst answer like a
man to Me! Who art thou darkening counsel by thy word, And in thine
ignorance accusing Them Who, ere thy prayer was formulated, heard And
crowned it with its passion's diadem ? Who is the Son of Man, that We should
mind him ? Or visit the vain virgin of his pleasance ? Yet ever as we went
We stood behind him And compassed her with Our continual presence ? From the
black whirlwind the most high God sayeth : Why did ye doubt, o ye of little
faith ?
II
I answer Thee out of the utmost dust. I am a worm, I abase myself, I cry
Against myself that I am found unjust More than all they that dwell beneath
the sky. I do repent, I do lament, o Thou Who hast watched over us and cared
for us, Beating i' the dust this consecrated brow, And answer Thee in broken
murmur thus, That I am altogether base and vile, That Thou art altogether
good and great, That Thou hast given the guerdon grace for guile Even while
I lifted up myself to Fate And cursed Thee. And from me who scorned to pray
Thou hast rolled the sad sepulchral stone away.
III
On this wise ; that by uttermost good Fortune I met you walking out in
London city, Even when from Heaven I did not dare importune Hardly to pass
your house ! The Gods took pity They whirled us in a chariot of fire About
the highest heavens for many an age ! So Regent's Park may seem to hot
desire ; So the archangel gets a cabman's wage ; So all the aeons that pass
still leave one time To take one's lunch at the appointed hour-This is the
difference between prose and rime And this the great gulf fixed for leaf and
flower. The British public grunts and growls and grovels, Swilling its
hogwash of neurotic novels.
IV
We knew enough to wake to choral rapture All answering Nature : I will swear
the sun Came out ; you saw the moulting trees recapture Their plumage, and
the green destroy the dun. Nothing could jar ; the British workman took A
kindly interest in our kind caresses ; The loafing nursemaid and the musing
cook Agreed with us entirely. Love impresses Its seal upon the world ; is
skilled to wake The sympathy of everything that lives. Kindliness, flows,
not venom, from the snake ; The trodden worm dies duly-but forgives The
cabman asked four shillings for the job, And almost boggled at my glad ten
bob !
V
Oh ! it was rapture and madness once again To turn our tears to kisses
brimming over The mouths that never were too wide and fain For lover to hold
intercourse with lover. Ah ! we were owls of dusk to doubt the light, Bats
to mistrust the Wolf's tail's holy warning : " Sorrow endureth maybe for a
night, But joy must surely cometh in the morning ". Joy, ay ! what joy
poured straight from the high treasure, The inexhaustible treasure of
delight The gods have poured us, pouring overmeasure Because we love with
all our life and might. Believe me, it is better than all prayers To show
the gods our love surpasses theirs !
VI
Nay, even thus you could not credit Fate, Even in my arms close cuddled as
you lay With hard-shut eyes and lips inebriate With their own kisses all
this happy day. Nay, but blaspheming you put hope aside, Bade me forget you,
swore yourself a liar, Smiled through the words because you knew you lied
Knew that-what waters can put out our fire ? So we amused ourselves with
cunning brisk Careful arrangements to forget each other. You cut that
love-curl from your neck at risk Of comment-at the slightest-from your
mother. You gave it me-God forget me, dear girl, When I forget to treasure
up that curl!
VII
Your loveliness should help me to forget you ; Your murmurous " I love you "
like soft bees Humming should help ; although my kisses fret you, They are
intended but to give you ease, And help you to forget me ; then, the fixed
Ardent intentness of my cat-green eyes Flecked with red fire is like a
potion mixed Straight out of Lethe, or divination lies. If there be truth in
augury, your lips Fastened to mine should be a certain spell To put your
memory of me in eclipse : -- In short, if all be true that sages tell, Two
days of absence with roast beef and beer Will cure me of you perfectly, my
dear !
VIII
Why did you play with such ungracious folly ? Because our passion is too
bitter-sweet ? Because the acute and maddening melancholy Is stronger than
the rapture when we meet ? Because you weep beyond your own control Like to
one wounded bleeding inwardly ? Because you are not the mistress of your
soul Mighty enough to master fate and me ? It cuts me to the heart to see
the brine Not falling from your bad bewitching eyes, To feel you are weeping
in the central shrine Whose woes the peristyle may not surprise. I want to
treat you as a lover rather ; You make me lecture to you like a father !
IX
Write in you heart, dear maid, that Hitherto The Lord hath helped us. Give
him duly praise (As I have given Him for making you). Pray not, ask not for
wealth and length of days Or even for wisdom, lest one day you find That you
are saddled with some thousand grooms (You bear the case of Solomon in mind
!) All in frock-coats and helmeted (with plumes) -- A scarcely pleasant
prospect ! Just give thanks O Lord, for what we have received, Amen ! And
then if Jordan overflows his banks, Our vines increase, and one seed turns
to ten, Keep on thanksgiving ! Even if things go wrong, Howls are less
pleasant to the ear than song.
X
Keep on thanksgiving ! We are tenfold blest Beyond others, simply having
found each other. Were we to part for ever, breast from breast, Now, even
now, there would not be another In all the earth that should not envy aright
With plenty cause our short-lived happiness. No life can hold one
half-an-hour's delight Such as we had-this morning ! Why then, bless, Bless
all that lives and moves and hath its being ! Bless all the Gods, without
omitting one ! Bless all the company of heaven, agreeing To veil their fires
to our stupendous sun ! Bless all the lesser glories that excite In the
great gladness of our mother light !
XI
How purely unexpected was the chance ! When things looked blackest, on a
sudden, the sun ! Chance is another word for ignorance ; We do not know how
all these things are done. But what has happened once may happen again, And
" Hitherto the Lord hath helped us ", dear ! " History repeats itself
"-which makes it plain That " Evermore the Lord will help us. " Fear And
sorrow are folly ; you must sleep o' nights (Try reading me !) and I can
promise you You will awake to more divine delights Than ever in the world
you guessed or knew. Stick to it ! One fine day you'll find on waking Me in
your arms, and-oh ! your body aching !
XII
This is an effort of prophetic skill Not passing range of human calculation.
A woman gets exactly what she will If she keeps willing it sans divagation.
To have me secretly and altogether Yours is your will-unless your kisses
lied. Sooner or later we shall slip the tether And all the world before us
deep and wide Gape like the abyss, through which we fall to find Strange
equilibrium without support, Strange rapture without sense, and void of mind
Strange ecstasies that mock the name of thought. Sooner or later, Lola !
Circumstance Bows before those who never miss a chance.
XIII
This is enough to make a donkey laugh ! I talk like a Dutch uncle ; and you
listen Like a man reading his own epitaph. But, really ! Truly ! How our
glad eyes glisten ! How our hearts rump ! Whatever we may say, Have never a
doubt, Lord, that it's all thanksgiving ! If Thou dost thus for people every
day, How very easy Thou must make a living ! We would be like Thee ! if we
had the power We would fill all folk with supernal blisses, Breed life's
sweet briar to the full June flower And on their praises feed our proper
kisses. For as you said " However kind the gods are, We could be kinder yet
I think the odds are ".
XIV
Let me take leave of you as heretofore With solemn kiss and sacred reverence
! I love you better and I love you more Daily, and whether you are hither or
hence. I adore you as I adore the holy ones That do abide exalted in their
shrine Starry beyond mere splendour of stars and suns, Drunken beyond mere
Dionysian wine. Thus do I hold you ; thus I pray you hold Me as a secret and
a blessed chrism That you have gained to adorn your house of gold By some
strange silent sacred exorcism. You have said `I love you'-sacraments are
true - I exchange the salutation. I love you.
V.
The Black Mass
I
Lord ! on love's altar lies the sacrament. O willing victim, eager to be
slain, Lusting to feel the knife, the life-veil rent, Assumption energized
by death ! O fain To feel the murderous ardour of the priest Clutch at his
throat, theurgic frenzy fly About the initiates of the Paschal feast And
know it centred in the dim dead I Loosed by the pang-even thus you know it
is, Even thus, when I invoke your harsh caress, Put up my mouth to your
immortal kiss, Confess you for my lady and murderess-In mine own life-blood
I exult to float Even as your white fangs fasten in my throat.
II
You stand away-to let your long lash curl About this aching body, fiery
rings Of torture, o my hot enamoured girl Whose passion rides me like a
steed and stings. Like to a wounded snake infuriated With pain, you drive
your reeking kisses home Into my flesh, their poisonous frenzy mated With
this delirious anguish, bitter foam Of storm on some innavigable sea. Whip,
whip me till I burn ! Whip on ! Whip on ! Is it not madness that you wake in
me ? Is not this curse the devil's orison ? Ah, devil ! devil ! when you
grip me and glare Into mine eyes, and answer all the prayer !
III
A virgin with the lusts of Messaline, A goat-soul in the body of a saint,
You writhe on me with cruel and epicene Phrenzy and agony of acute
restraint. You ache-you burn-you dizzy me with blows-You call me coward and
eunuch, who say No. Volcanic child ! upon your masking snows I will not
raise my rod, that forth may flow Torrents of blazing lava, that shall hiss
And roar, and ruin all the glad green world. I like the attack of your
seducing kiss The lashes of your love about me curled, Better than slack
delight and murmuring sigh-Flowers by the road to sad satiety.
IV
Spit in my face ! I love you. Clench your fists And beat me ! Still, I love
you. Let your eyes Like fiery opals or mad amethysts Curse me ! I love you.
Let your anger rise And with your teeth tear bleeding bits of flesh Out of
my body-kill me if you can ! I love you. I will have you fair and fresh, A
maenad maiden maddening for a man. Ay ! you shall weary in the erotic
craving ! I'll have you panting-aching to the marrow-Exhausted, but a maiden
(Lesbia raving : " Catullus brings a song and not a sparrow ") Famished with
love, fed full with love, your soul Still on the threshold of the unenvied
goal.
V
The goal of love is gotten not of these White-blooded fools that haste and
marry and tire. They grasp and break their bubble ecstasies ; We know desire
the secret of desire. We have the wisdom of the saints of old Who know that
what divinely is begun Glows from dawn's grey to noon's deliberate gold
Darkens to crimson-and day's race is run. For us the glamour of the dawn
suborning, We escape the enervating heat of noon : We hear Astarte for
Adonis mourning, And close our lover's calendar at June. Ah, Lola ! but we
suffer. Hell's own worm Aches less than this, and hath an earlier term.
VI
You grind your tiny shoes into my face ; You roll upon the furs before the
fire, Smiting and cursing in the devil's race Whose goal and prize is
Unassuaged Desire. You rub your naked body against mine : You madden me by
blows and bites and kisses ; You make me drunken with your stormy wine ; We
swoon, we roll into unguessed abysses Of torture and of bliss ; we wake and
yearn, Doing violence on ourselves-anon we are slain, Slain and reborn again
to ache and burn : Aeon on aeon thunders through our brain.-At last you see,
my maiden ? Kiss me ! Kiss ! There is no end-happy or not-to this !
VII
There is a respite-we must part anon. Short are the hours of sweetness : it
is well. Could such a bout of murder carry on We should drink poison and
awake in hell ; Or being but mortal, or nearly mortal, yield Exhausted
spirit to the clamant flesh ; The book of common love should be unsealed,
And we be caught within the common mesh That catches common folk. O God !
bite hard ! Smite down rebellious flesh with hideous pain ! Bite hard !
Smite hard ! By bruises scarred and marred Love this exultant face ! Again !
Again ! O Lola ! Lola ! Lola ! Kiss me, Kiss! Nay-nay! Kiss not ! I cannot
bear the bliss.
VIII
You are a devil gloating on the pain You suffer and I suffer ; you laugh
shrill Over the pangs of those pale fools, the twain Whom we deceive, whom
we shall surely kill Whispering a word of this. Ah ! joy it is That false to
faith is all the honied pressing; A traitor triumphs in each stolen kiss,
Caligula and Cressida caressing. You love yourself for stealing me away From
the proud lovely wife ; you love me more That in my arms a prostitute you
lay, And to your troth-plight lover played the whore When mouth to mouth we
clung, and breath for breath Exchanged the royal accolade of death.
IX
I love you for your cruelty to them ; I love you for your cruelty to me ; I
see their blood glittering a diadem Upon your dazzling brows ; my blood I
see Sucked deep into your body, curling round Like fire in every artery and
vein Massed in your heart, colossal and profound. I am mad for you to brand
me with the stain Of your own vice. Our souls, a murdering crew Of itching
Mullahs, wallow, dervish-drunk. Love surges at the pang ! Our poisonous dew
Of sweat and kisses blinds us. A mad monk Kissing fanatically the cross that
had Devoured his vitals is not half as mad !
X
Ay ! rub yourself, you big lascivious cat, On the electric soft, the wanton
fur ! Call upon Hera ! You've a furious gnat Worth any gadfly ever sent from
her ! Call upon Aphrodite ! she will send No sparrows from her prudish
Paphian home ! Call upon Artemis ! She will not bend To lift you from your
seas of bitter foam ! Nay ! wrap yourself and rub yourself in silk ! Drink
of my blood, engorge my fruitless sperm ! For you were suckled on the
poisonous milk That betrays virgins to the deathless worm. Are we not glad
thereof? Kiss, Lola, kiss, Comrade of mine in the uttermost abyss !
XI
Follow Iacchus from the Indian vales ! Set him with song upon the milk-white
ass ! Follow Iacchus while the sunset pales ! Revel it on the
flower-enamelled grass While the moon lasts ; then plunge in trackless woods
! Slay beasts unheard-of and blaspheming kings ! Mingle in madness with
strange sisterhoods ! Dare black Aornos with Daedalian wings ! All words !
words ! there's a hunger to express The infinite pangs, the infinite mighty
blisses Stored in the house of rapture and distress Whose key is one of our
blood-tainted kisses Whose fume arises from the accursed sod Where we lie
burning and blaspheming God.
XII
So in this agony of enforced silence The sober song breaks to a phrenzied
scream ; The shattering brain admits the mad god's violence, And wild things
course as in an evil dream : Devils and dancers, druid rites and dread,
Horrible symbols scarred across the sky, Invisible terrors of the quick and
dead, Impossible phantoms in mad revelry Conjoined in spinthriae of bestial
form, Human-faced toads, and serpent-headed women, All lashed and slashed by
the all-wandering storm Caricature of all things holy and human -- -- Such
are the discords that absolve the strain As this wild threnody dissolves the
brain.
XIII
Forgive me, o my holy and happy maid, Lola, sweet Lola, for the imagination
Of all things monstrous that your soul dismayed Reads on the palimpsest of
my elation. Simple and sweet and chaste our love is ever, And these its wild
and mystic characters That rage and storm in impotent endeavour To unveil
our glory to our worshippers. Lola, dear Lola, mystic maiden o' mine, Let us
not mingle with the ribald rout That throng our temple. Close, Palladian
shrine, With our reverberate glory rayed about ! Abide within-with me ! Let
silence sever This velvet `now' from that unclothed `for ever' !
XIV
Though I adorn my thought with angel tresses Or pluck its pallium from the
demon-kings, My spirit rests at ease in your caresses, And cares not for the
song, so that it sings. Life is but one caress, one song of gladness, One
infinite pulse of love in tune with you ; One infinite pulse, upsoaring into
madness, Down sinking to content. O far and few The stars that follow our
lofty pilgrimage Into the abyss of silence and delight Beyond the glamour of
the world, the age, The illusions of the light and of the night. Wherefore
accept these meteor flames that dance Pale coruscations to our brilliance !
VI
The Adept
I
Even as the holy Ra that travelleth Within his bark upon the firmament,
Looking with fire-keen eyes on life and death In simple state and cardinal
content : Even as the holy hawk that towers sublime Into the great abyss,
with icy gaze Fronting the calm immensities of time And making space to
shudder ; so I praise With infinite contempt the joyous world That I have
figured in this brain of mine. The sails of this life's argosy are furled ;
The anchor drops in those abodes divine. Master of self and God, freewill
and Fate, I am alone-at last-to meditate.
II
Wrapped in the wool of wizardry I sit ; Mantled in mystery ; the little
things That I have made through weariness of wit, Stars, cells, and whorls,
all wonder in their wings ! These Gods and men, these laws, these
hieroglyphs And sigils of my fancy seem to spire In worship up mine
everlasting cliffs I built between my will and my desire. They reach me not
; I made a monstrous crowd, Innumerable monuments of thought, But none is
equal ; this high head is bowed In vain to the wise God it would have
wrought, Had not-Who sitteth on the Holy Throne Thereby must make himself to
be alone.
III
See ! to be God is to be lost to God. That which I cling to is my proper
essence ; Nor is there aught at any period That may endure the horror of my
presence. I conjure up dim gods ; how frail and thin ! How fast they slip
from this appalling level ! This is the wage of the fellatrix Sin Drunk on
the icy death-sperm of the Devil. I were a maniac did I contemplate The
outward glory and the inward terror, Sick with the hideous light myself
create From the dark certainty of gloom and error. For I am that I am-behold
! this `I' Hath nothing constant it may measure by.
IV
Should I take pleasure in the fond perfume That curls about my altars ? in
the throats That chant my glory in the decent gloom Of lofty ministers ?
Shall the blood of goats And bulls and men send up a fragrant steam To me,
who am ? Shall shriek of pythoness Or wail of augur move this dreadful dream
To some less melancholy consciousness ? I have created men, who made them
gods Of their own excrements, and worshipped them. I cannot match these
calculating clods Who twist themselves a faecal diadem From all the thorny
thoughts that plague them most ; Break wind, and call upon the Holy Ghost.
V
Yet I abide; for who is Pan is all. He hath no refuge in deceitful death.
What soul is immanent may never fall; What soul is Breath can never fail of
breath. The pity and the terror and the yearning Of this my silence and my
solitude Are broken by the blazing and the burning Of this dread majesty,
this million-hued Brilliance that coruscates its jetted fire Into the
infinite aether ; this austere And noble countenance set fast in dire And
royal wrath, this awful face of fear Before whose glance the ashen world
grows grey, Crashes, and chaos crumbles all away.
VI
As when the living eyes of man behold The embalmed seductions of a queen of
Khem Wrapped with much spice and linen and red gold And guardian gods on
every side of them ; Yet inasmuch as life is life, they shrink, Shrivel and
waste to ashes as men gaze : So doth the world grow giddy at the brink Of
these unfathomable eyes, that blaze Swifter and deadlier than storms or
snakes. Then-o what wonder, as I strain afar The basilisk flame ! -- what
breathless wonder wakes That I behold unsinged a silver star O joy ! O
terror ! O ! -- O can it be There is a thing that is, apart from me ?
VII
I travelled, so the star. We neared ; we saw Each other, knew each other ;
in your face Mine equal self with majesty and awe Abode ; and thus we stayed
for a great space. What was the manner of our countenance? I saw you seated,
as a great lost God With blasphemy exulting in your glance And horror at
your lips ; my soul was shod With glory, and your body bathed in glory, So
that from out the uttermost abyss The very darkness churned itself to hoary
And phosphor foam of agony and bliss. The authentic seal of our majestic
might Stamped on the light in light the light of light.
VIII
So presently, most solemnly and slowly, Our fingers touched and caught ; our
lips reached forth And with conscious purpose smote their holy Lives into
one, and loosed their common wrath. Unto the ends of our dead universe Their
frenzy rolled ; henceforth no prince or power Should lift the sterile
strength of that one curse Even to bring one thought to birth one hour. For
now we knew ; " it is a lonely thing To sit supreme upon the single throne ;
" But being come thus far, goes glittering : " It is a lovely thing to be
alone ! " Silence ! Beware to speak the fatal word That might inweave our
two-ply with a third !
IX
Wherefore again in sexless sanctity The mighty lingam rears its stilled
sublime ; The mighty yoni spreads its chastity Against the assaulting gods
of space and time. Rather be Phoedra than Semiramis ! I will deny you,
though you doom to dare To abdicate, and risk the spirit kiss In the
embraces of the wanton air. Why should we cast our crowns to gods unborn ?
Why yield our bleeding garlands till the hour When to ourselves we seem a
shame and scorn And seek some craft to span a statelier power ? Not for a
while evoke that sombre spell ! The present still exceeds the possible.
X
That is his truth that seems to sink supine Into your bosom's bliss, the
scented snare, Killed by your kisses shuddering in his spine And blinded in
the bowers of your hair ! This is his truth, who seems to writhe and sob
Beneath the earthquake pangs of your caress, Whose heart burns out in one
volcanic throb, Whose life is eaten up of nothingness This is his truth, and
yours, that seem to be Mere beauteous bodies gripped in epicene And sterile
passion, all unchastity In being chaste, all chaste in our obscene And
sexless mouthings, that repugnant roll Their bestial billows on the
snow-pure soul.
XI
This is our truth, that only Nothing is, And Nothing is an universe of Bliss
; That loves denote supernal ecstasies, And saintship lurks in the colossal
kiss. Loves are the letters of the holy word That contradicts the curse "
Let Being be ! " Since all things, even one thing, are absurd ; And no thing
is the utmost ecstasy. Kisses induct the soft and solemn tune That Israfel
shall blow on Doomisday-Your silky eyes are blue as that pale moon (For ere
it dies it sickens into grey) That witches see, whose eager violence Aborts
the gods of cosmic permanence.
XII
The uninstructed and blaspheming man Looks on the world and sees it void and
base. Let him endure its horror as he can ! There is no help for his unhappy
case. The love-taught magus, the hermaphrodite, Knows how to woo the Mother,
and awake her ; Beholding, in the very self-same sight, The self-illumined
image of the Maker. I love, and you are wise ; our spirits dance A merry
measure to the music moving In waves through that mirific brilliance. Will
you first tire of wit, or I of loving ? Tire ? O thou sea of love, thy
ripples run Into themselves, to my serener sun !
XIII
For you I built this faery dome of words And crowned it with the cross of my
desire. I circled it with songs of blessed birds And cradled all in the
celestial fire. The stars enfold it ; the eternal sun And moon give light ;
nor clouds nor rain intrude ; Only the dews of Dionysus run In this
intoxicating solitude. I have begemmed its marble flame of spires With
jewels from the bliss of God, and set Chryselephantine columns curled like
fires Below each misty opal minaret. Is there no window to the east ? Behold
The eyes of Love, your love, the essential gold !
XIV
For me therein shall you erect a statue Even as you know me with the mystic
eyes Hungrily, hungrily a-gazing at you, Afeast upon our strange sad
ecstasies. Make me the aching mouth parched-up with blisses The lips curled
back, the breath desiring you, The whole face fragrant with your full free
kisses, The soul thereof exhaling scented dew Born in the utmost world where
we in truth Abide like Bacchus with a Bassarid Drunk with our art, love,
beauty, force and youth ; But place that head upon a pyramid Of snaky
lightnings, lest-but that shall be Always a secret between you and me.
XV
Or, an you will, evoke me as the Sphinx With lion's claws, bull's breast,
and eagle's wings ! You are my riddle, and the answer sinks Below the deep
essential base of things, Rises above the utmost brim of thought And bubbles
over as impatient song. Yet " We are one " is all, and all is naught ; And
this one " one ", and " all ", and " naught " The whole content of our
imagining, [shall throng The great arcanum in the adytum hid From men, and
though we carve or kiss or sing, The Sphinx is dumb, and blind the
Pyramid.-Now our affairs are ordered perfectly. Give me your mouth, your
mouth, and let us die !
VII
The Vampire
I
Let me away ! Then is it not enough That you have won me to your wickedness
? That we have touched the strange and sexless love Whose heart is death ?
That you and I express The poison of a thousand evil flowers And drain that
cup of bitterness, my Lola ? That you have killed my safe and sunny hours-A
Venus to seduce Savonarola ! Why have you taken this most monstrous shape,
Imperious malison and hate flung after ? You clutch me like a gross
lascivious ape, And like a gloating devil's rings the laughter. O sweet my
maid, bethink yourself awhile ! Recall the glad kiss and the gentle smile !
II
Where are you ? Who am I ? O who am I ? Why do I lie and let you ? I was
strong-I was so strong I might have bid you die With one swift arrow from my
quiver, song. Now you are over me ; you hold me here ; You grip my flesh
till bleeding bruises start ; You threaten me with-can I name the fear ? I
always knew you never had a heart. God ! who am I ? My Lola, speak to me !
Tell me you love me ; tell me-I am dazed With something terrible and strange
I see Even in the mouth that kissed, the lips that praised. You leer above
me like a brooding fiend Waiting to leap upon a babe unweaned.
III
Kiss me at least ! We always were good friends-Kiss me for old times'
sake-Kiss me just once ! I know this ends-as every sweet thing ends !
But-say you are not angry ! Ere you pounce, Forgive me ! You could make me
glad to die, I think, if you would only kill me kindly. Just one swift
razor-stroke-cut low ! -- and I Would pass the portal happily and blindly.
Yes ! I would like to think the fountain sprang Straight from my throat and
slaked your aching thirst, Shot to your hot red heart one red hot pang, Then
left you cool and smiling as at first. I give you freely my heart's agony.
But oh ! oh ! speak to me ! do speak to me !
IV
God ! do not wait then ! kill me now ; have done ! Why do you watch me mute
and immobile, Sitting like death between me and the sun, A sphinx with eyes
of jade and jaws of steel ? Let me rise up to kneel to you and pray ! I hate
this hell of agony supine. You killed her yesterday ; kill me to-day ; Let
me not hang like Christ ! Now snap my spine ! Surely you know the trick-when
from your lips I see a thin chill stream of stark black blood Trickling, the
stream of hate that glows and grips My lesser life within its sickening
flood. Be pitiful, and end your cruelty ! Suck out the life of me, that I
may die !
V
O brooding vampire, why art thou arisen ? Why art thou so unquiet in the
tomb ? Why has thy corpse burst brilliant out of prison ? Whence get the
lips their blood, the cheeks their bloom ? Is there no garlic I may wear
against thee ? No succour in the consecrated Host ? Nay, if thou slay not it
is thou restrainst thee. I am the virgin, thou the Holy Ghost. There is no
comfort nor defence nor peace From thee (and all thy malice) in the world :
Thou sittest through the aching centuries Like the old serpent in his horror
curled Ready to strike home-and yet not striking Till thou hast lipped the
victim to thy liking !
VI
Am I not beautiful ? Your lithe mouth twitches As if already you were
glutted on This fair firm flesh that fears you and yet itches-You know
it-for some master malison. Perhaps you mean to let me go ? Ah sweet ! How
seven times sweet if you will let me go-Oh ! Oh ! I want to worship at your
feet. Why do you stab me with a smiling " No " ? Say " no " at least-to see
you sitting there So dumb is madness-why then, let me go ! I will-and you
sit quiet-did you dare ? To everything the answer still is " No ! " You
coward ! Coward ! Coward ! let me rise ! -- I cannot bear the hunger in your
eyes.
VII
You are afraid of me-I see it now. You know that if you loose me, never
again Will I be such a fool. I wonder how I ever took this destiny of pain.
Loose me ! You dare not. Take your eyes away ! You dare not. O you laugh !
You trust your power There you are wrong-but had you turned to-day I would
have murdered you within the hour. Yes ! you do well-you know the dreadful
weight Pale silence sheds, not Atlas could uplift. You know the spell to
conquer love and hate, To win the world and win it at a gift. You are afraid
of that then-had you spoken You fear the spell upon me had been broken !
VIII
Even that taunt has left you smiling still, And silent still-and that is ten
times worse. Where is my will, my adamantine will? Curse God and die ? I can
nor die nor curse. Ah, but I can. The agony extends-I am wrapt up all in an
equal hell. There is a point at which emotion ends. I am come through to
peace, though pain yet swell Its paean in my every vein and nerve. Try me, o
God, convulse me to the marrow ! I am it's element ; I shall not swerve. I
am Apollo too ; I loose one arrow Swift enough, straight enough to conquer
you. O Sphinx ! Gaze on ! I can be silent too.
* * * * *
IX
* * * * *
Now then the pressure and the pain increase, And ever nearer grows the
exulting rose Your face ; and like a Malay with his kriss That runs amok
your passion gleams and grows. It shakes me to the soul : by that you are
stilled ; You hold yourself together, like a man Stabbed to the heart, who,
knowing he is killed, Lets his whole life out in his yataghan, And strikes
one masterstroke. So now you breathe Close on my face ; you strip me of
defence ; You sing in obscure words whose crowns enwreathe My forehead with
their viewless violence, So that I lie, as at the appointed term, Awaiting
the foul kisses of the worm.
X
You close on me ; by God, you breed in me ! My flesh corrupt is tingling
with the kiss Of myriads, like the innumerable sea In waves of life that
feeds its boundless bliss On the eroded earth. These are your thoughts, Your
living thoughts that throng my stagnant veins ! Your jackals howl among the
holy courts ; Your monster brood of devils in my brains Laughs ; oh ! they
feast on my decaying blood ; They gnaw the last sweet morsel from my
bones.-As on the parched-up earth there flames the flood Of the monsoon,
black dust and barren stones Leap into green, so I whose epitaph Your
passion writes, awake to live-to laugh !
XI
Even to the end of all must I resist. New deaths, new births, each minute
boiling over. I can go on for ever, an you list-Now, now ! O no ! I will
not. O my lover ! Spare me ! Enough ! Take pity ! Mutely moans Your mouth in
little sobs and calls and cries And catches of the breath, whose bliss
atones In once for all the long-drawn agonies. Now that the pain swings over
into pleasure, Now that the union which is death is done, The wine of bliss
rolls out in brimming measure. The moon is dead-all glory to the Sun ! Now,
now ! Oh no ! Oh no ! I penetrate-I pierce. Enough. God ! God ! how Thou art
great !
XII
Then closer, closer. No ! -- then stop-think well What is this wonder we
awake. Now think We are cast down to the abyss of hell Or tremble upon
heaven's dizzy brink-Which ? All's the same. Go on. No-what is this ? Why
dally ? To the hilt ! Ah mine, ah mine ! Kiss me-I cannot kiss you-kiss me !
Kiss ! Oh ! God ! Oh God ! Forgive me ; I am thine.-Horses and chariots that
champ and clang ! The roar of blazing cressets that environ The form that
fuses in the perfect pang. A blast of air thorough the molten iron-One
scream of light. Creating silence drops Into that silence when
creation-stops.
XIII
So-e finita la commedia. " And if the King like not the comedy " (Twine in
your hair the fallen gardenia !) " Why then, belike he likes it not, pardie
! " What will the " King "-the British Public-say When they perceive their
sorrow was my fun, Their Hecuba my mocking Brinvilliers ? I neither know nor
care. What we have done We have done. Admit, though, you are rare and rich !
This palely-wandering knight has found a flame Both merciless and beautiful,
you witch ! You play the game, and frankly, as a game ! This is the hour of
prattle-tell me true ! I have never net another such. Have you ?
XIV
Yet all the comedy was tragedy. I truly felt all that I farced to feel.
Because the wheel revolves, forsooth, shall we Deny a top and bottom to the
wheel ? I am the centre too, and stand apart. I am the All, who made the
All, in All Who am, being Naught. I am the bloodbright Heart. Wreathed with
the Snake, and chaos is their pall Thou art as I ; this mystery is ours.
These blood-bought bastards of futility Can never know us, fair and
free-born flowers. So they may say-they will-of you and me : " These poets
never know green cheese from chalk : " This is the sort of nonsense lovers
talk. "
VIII
The Initiation
I
Lola ! now look me straight between the eyes. Our fate is come upon us. Tell
me now Love still shall arbitrate our destinies, And joy inform the swart
Plutonic brow. Behold ! the doom foreseen, the doom embraced, Fastens its
fang ; the gods of death and birth Make friends to slay us, Pilate
interlaced With Herod in obscene and murderous mirth. Lola ! come close !
confront them ! Let us read The book once sealed, now open to our gaze !
Avenge our love and vindicate our breed With courage to the ending of the
days. Since fall we must, o arm ourselves aright, Fall fighting in the
forefront of the fight !
II
First ; let us face the foemen, number them, Measure their arms ! Who
smiteth us ? We wove In grove and garden many a diadem Dewy with all the
purity of love. The Hermes of the orchard lets the string Slip from his
finger, and the arrow speeds Striking our love beneath the flamy wing So
that the heart of heaven breaks and bleeds. That poisoned shaft fed with
corrupting germs Hath stricken us to earth : the wound corrodes, Breeding
within us all its noisome worms, All the black larvae of the accurst abodes
: -- The virgin of our reed-shrill ecstasies Raped by the stinking satyr of
disease !
III
I who have loved you-shall I love you now, Your teeth dropt out, your fair
flesh fallen away, The Crown of Venus on your itching brow, The coppery
flush, the leprous scurf of grey ? The god that rots the living flesh of man
Fills up your mouth-one ulcer-with his groans And all our blessings choke
and turn to ban The beast that gnaws the marrow of our bones. Caught in
corrupt caresses of disease, Shall we dispute us with his fervour, fain Too
woo with sores your turbid arteries And kiss black ulcers in your spotted
brain ? We married close, my Lola, with a kiss : -- Now for the lifelong
lover, Syphilis !
IV
Yea ! but we love. We win. The body's curse Is bitter, but he hath not won
the whole. There's more than life in this brave universe. Death cannot touch
the secret of the soul ! Nor shall we shrink, although this further pang
Strike through the liver with its fiery dart, The hope-the horrid hope-whose
gleaming fang Now stirs, a serpent's, underneath your heart ! For lo ! not
vainly we invoked the god That looseneth the girdle of a maid ; Even now
draws nigh the dreadful period That maketh all the mother-world afraid. With
rotten fruit your belly is grown big-Thanks to the bastard god that cursed
the fig !
V
Your swollen neck is grown a swollen breast Gushing with poisoned milk; your
breath is caught In quick sharp gasps ; you get nor sleep nor rest, The
monster moving in you in his sport. Surely a monster ! some unnatural thing,
Some Minotaur of shame, no egg of pride To hatch the miniature of love and
spring In your own image, subtly glorified. White swan you were ! not Zeus
but Cerberus Hath ravished you ; you brood on harpy eggs-Sweet sister ! is
the wine too sour for us ? We have drunk deep-nay ! nay ! but to the dregs !
And all their bitterness is braver brew Than the dull syrup of the pious
crew.
VI
Still we can laugh at burgesses and churls In our excess of agony and lust.
We pity these poor prudes, insipid girls And tepid boys, these creatures of
the dust. We pity all these meal-mouthed montebanks That prate of Jesus,
ethics, faith and reason, These jerry-built dyspeptics, stuccoed cranks,
Their lives one dreary plain, one moist dull season Like their grey land. O
costive crapulence ! They ache and strain within the water-closet Of church
and State, their shocked bleat of offence : " This poet's life was such a
failure ". Was it ? Fools ! our worst boredom was a loftier thrill Than all
you ever felt-or ever will.
VII
If we are weary, it is flesh that faints. We cannot bear such worlds of
happiness. Even in this torture that consumes and taints, We writhe in
bliss, one terrible caress Of the great Gods of Hells. Ah ! surely, dear,
Our way is wise, transcending human woe : We are most happy and of great
good cheer. What do we know ? It matters not. We know. This is enough, that
we have slain the Sphinx, Worked out her wizardry, dissolved her doom ; And
though her wine be death to him that drinks We shall carouse for ever in the
tomb. We drank bull's blood ; and all our pangs immense Are better than
eupeptic innocence.
VIII
Ah ! if flesh fails, may we not also fail ? May not the vulture liars gather
round Our death-beds, and drone out their dismal tale With drawl and whine,
the Galilean sound Of snuffle and twang ? May not their stinking souls
Interpret our last sighs as penitence When we close up the coruscating
scrolls Of our life's joy, seal up the jar of sense To broach the starry
flagon-splendid spilth ? These creeping cravens shall be circumvented ; They
shall not belch their flatulence and filth On us, or tell the world that we
repented. Come, as we strained it, let us break the tether In the last
luxury-to die together !
IX
Let Death steal softly through the gate of sleep On tiptoe ! win away the
maiden life On velvet pinions to his azure steep ; At ease, at peace, to woo
her for a wife ! His white horse waiting quietly without Let him push gently
the delicious door And take us. We have lived. How should we doubt Or fear ?
we have lived well. For ever more We must be well. The cypress cannot daunt,
Nor the acacia thrill ; we are content To wonder in the shadowy groves, to
haunt The dark delight of our own element ; Or-could we send a messenger-to
tell Our brothers of the happiness of Hell !
X
Are not the poppy-fields one snowy flame ? Come, let us wander hand in hand
therein, Straining with joyous juice our lips of shame, Draining their
bitter draught of sterile sin ! Are not the eyes of sleep already dull, The
lashes drooping over their desire ? Are not the gods awaiting to annul With
Lethe the last flicker of the fire ? Ay, let us kiss, my darling ; let us
twitch For the last time the flesh against the flesh, Before the coming of
the lovely witch That shall excite our sleepy souls afresh, Anointing us
with subtle drugs and suave, Fit for the grave, for love beyond the grave !
XI
For the last time, my Lola ! Still the name Fills me with music, echoing
afar Faint, like the rapture of some ghostly flame Rejoicing in some lone
secreted star Beyond the visible heaven. Come to me ! Come closer ! Is not
this as close as death ? Are we not one to all eternity Jewelled with joy ?
Mix me your subtle breath Into the words well-known and never worn, Into the
kiss well-kissed and never tired, Into the love well-loved and not forlorn,
The love beyond all that ever was desired ? Ay ! all the cloudy must of life
is strained To clearer liquor that our souls attained.
XII
How the yahoos will rage and rave about Our sloughs ! " Appalling double
suicide ! " `Orrible detiles ". In the world without We never yet consented
to abide. What should we care, within this cave of bliss, This ocean of
content, wherein we dive And play like dolphins, for the horrid hiss Of
blow-flies ? Nay, they never were alive ! O the sweet sleep that fastens on
these brows ! O the enchauntment of this dreamy god, My mystic sister, my
mellific spouse, That shepherds us with his hermetic rod Into the flowery
folds of love and sleep Where we have strayed-O never yet so deep !
XIII
Lola, dear Lola, how the stillness grows ! How drowsy is the world, that
folds her wings Over us, folding like a sunset rose Her crimson raptures to
the night of things ! How all the voices and the visions fail As we pass
through into the silent hall Beyond the vapours and beyond the veil, Beyond
the Nothing as beyond the All ! Ah ! then, our voice must also fail in this
; Our symbols are but shadows in the sun ; Love's self springs from the
shadow of the kiss ; Our bliss ! O, that was hardly half begun ! We fight
the Fate as we have fought the foemen. The poison takes us. --
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XIV
Farewell ! O passionate world of changeful hours ! Come, Lola, let us sleep
! Elysian groves Await us and the beatific bowers Where Love is ours at
last-as we were Love's. Come, with our mouths still kissing, with our limbs
Still twined, relax the ecstasy ! pass by To the abyss of night where no
star swims ! On to the end beyond the prophecy ! Ah Lola mine ! " No happy
end is this "-I love you-ah ! you love me-you love me ! For we have passed
beyond imagined bliss Into the kingdom of reality, Where we are crowned with
flowers-yet closer creep ! Sleep, Lola, now ! I love you-sleep-ah, sleep !
Notes
THE AUGUR
I. 6. They.-The Fates or Moirae.
III. 11. The dog-faced god.-Anubis, the Threshold-Guardian of the
`Gods' of Egypt. Mantic means prophetic.
VI. 14. Child.-The unhappy girl was at this time but 17 years old.
VIII. 5. Justine.-The virtuous but victimized heroine of the
infamous novel of the Marquis de Sade.
XI. 6. Sabbath.-Consult Payne Knight : `Essays on the worship of Priapus',
Eliphas Levi : ` Dogme et rituel de la haute Magie' and others.
XIII. 12. 13. Sigil.-Sign-manual.
THE ALCHEMIST
I. 8. Wolfish queens.-Thus these wicked wretches dare to speak of their kind
and godly relations.
II. 11. Blind Worms-pious swine.-The poor servants of God! Ah, well ! we
have our comfort in Him; like Our Blessed Lord, we can forgive. It is for
our loving Lord to set His foot upon the necks of our enemies, and to cast
them out into the blackness of darkness for ever.
V. 12. 13. This is quite unintelligible to me.
XI. I think this is what is called Echolalia, a sure sign of `degeneracy';
or, as I prefer to think, a wickedness which has gone, dreadful as it sounds
to write, beyond the Infinite Mercy of God. "I will send them strong
delusion."
XIII. 9. Oriflamme.-How obscene is all this symbolism !
THE HERMIT
IV. 7. Myrrh-Musk.-The Perfumes of Sorrow and of Lust. Many prostitutes
scent themselves strongly with musk, the better to allure their unhappy
victims.
VI. 8. Maid.-Proserpine, or Hecate. I think the latter, as Proserpine became
wife of Hades.
VII. This disgusting sonnet seems to refer to the wicked magical practice of
travelling by the astral double.
IX. Cannabis.-Indian hemp, a drug producing maniacal intoxication.
X. 12. Verlaine ! Zola !.-These are the vampires that suck out the virtue
from our young people, the foreign corrupters of our purer manners !
XII. 7. Attis - Abelard.-`Thirst' here clearly means unhallowed lust, since
Attis and Abelard were both mutilated persons.
XIV. 13. 14. What Mad megalomania !
THE THAUMATURGE
I. 1. Horrible blasphemy of this adaptation of Job to their vile purposes !
IV. 14. Ten bob.-Vulgarity must always go with wickedness. Christ is not
only a saving but a refining influence.
V.6. Wolf's tail.-The Zodiacal Light, seen before dawn.
XIV. I suppose that such mixture of ribaldry, blasphemy,
vulgarity, and obscenity, as this series of sonnets has never been
known. But worse is to follow !
THE BLACK MASS
XI. 6. A reference to the Bacchae of Euripides.
THE ADEPT
I. 1. Ra.-The `Sun-God'
I. 5. Horus.-The hawk, also a `Sun-God'
II. 1. Apollonius of Tyana, the notorious pseudo-Christ,
used to cover himself in wool in order to meditate.
III. 7. Fellatrix.-Only a Latin dictionary can unveil
the loathsome horror of this filthy word.
IV. q sqq.-Impossible to comment on this shocking `sin
against the Holy Ghost' To compare the very Spirit or
Breath of God to-Oh, Lord, how long?
VI. 11. Basilisk.-a fabulous creature that slew all that
it looked upon.
XI. 1. Lingam.-The Hindu God(!) -- the male organ of generation.
2. Yoni-Its feminine equivalent. That the poor Hindus should worship these
shameful things ! And we? Oh how poor and inadequate is all our missionary
effort ! Let us send out more, and yet more, to our perishing brothers !
5. Phaedra was repulsed by her son Hippolytus; Semiramis received the
willing embraces of her son Ninus.
XI. 1. Only Nothing is.-There is much metaphysical nonsense culled
from German Atheistic philosophy, in these poems. A wicked
philosopher is far more dangerous than a mere voluptuary.
10. Doomisday.-An affected archaism for the day of Judgement. How
can the writer dare to speak of this great day, on which he shall
be damned for ever? "For he that believeth not is condemned
already."
XII. 6. Mother.-Nature. How true would be these striking words, if
only for " the love-taught magus, the hermaphrodite " with all its
superstition, blasphemy, and obscenity, one were to write "The
Christ-saved sinner, brought into the light". !
XV. 10. The arcanum in the adytum.-More classical affectation for
" the secret thing in the holy place ".
THE VAMPIRE
I. 8. Savonarola.-An ascetic Florentine doctor.
V. 1-6. For a good modern account of vampires and their habits, consult Mr
Bram Stoker's Dracula
IX. 3. Kriss.-The Malayan dagger.
4. Runs amok.-Maddened by drink, these wretches run wildly through the
streets, slaying all they meet until they themselves are slain. Only the
gospel of Christ can save such.
8. Yataghan.-The Afghan sword.
XII. 12. The writer is evidently thinking of the " Bessemer converter ".
XIII. 1. " The comedy is finished ".
5-7. A reference to Hamlet and the Players.
10. 11. Reference to Keats' Belle Dame sans Merci.
XIV. 10. Blood-bought bastards-Christians ! O Saviour! what didst
Thou come to save ?
6. Quoted from Arnold's Song Celestial.
7. 8. Quoted from a magical Coptic papyrus.
THE INITIATION
III. This shocking sonnet awakes pity and disgust in equal
proportions. If even then they had only turned to the " Great
Physician ! " But no ! " God hardened Pharaohs heart ".
IV. 14. Alas ! no doubt that the reference is to our blessed Lord
and Master, The barren fig-tree has been no doubt a
stumbling-block to many weak souls. But the fig tree has here a
deeper signification in its reference to certain loathsome forms
of disease, and it is a symbol of lust. See Rosenbaum's " Plague
of Lust "
V. 1. Swollen neck.-A superstition of the ancients was that the
neck swelled on the bridal night, and virginity was tested by the
proportion of the skull and the neck. See Beverland " Draped
Virginity ".
VI. Poor, poor deluded victims of Satan ! If they only knew the
holy joy of even the least of Jesu's lambs!
VII. 13. Bull's blood.-Supposed to be a poison by the ancients.
Thus Themistocles is said to have died.
IX. 9. Cypress-Symbol of death.
10. Acacia-Symbol of resurrection.
X. 1. The poppy-fields.-They killed themselves with laudanum.
XII. 1. Yahoos.-See Swift's Voyage to Laputa. It is to be feared
that the mad Dean intended to satirize mankind, the race for which
the Lord of Glory died !
XIII. {Chi-chi-iota-rho-epsilon-tau-epsilon Nu-iota-
chi-omega-mu-epsilon-nu} Rejoice, we conquer. It is very
extraordinary how Satan's blindness and fury possess them to the
very end. Even as they died, maybe one fervent cry of repentance
to the dear Saviour of all men would have been heard, and the
gates of Paradise swung open as Satan, cheated of his prey, sank
yelling into the Pit. But alas ! there is no such word : nothing
but a pagan Epicureanism even in the jaws of death.
A Prayer
Merciful and loving Father, almighty God, grant unto us Thy humble
servants and ministers a double portion of Thy Spirit that our
eyes may be opened to the wickedness of them that love Thee not,
that by Thy grace our ministrations may be used to bring them out
of darkness into Light, by the virtue of our crucified Lord, risen
and ascended. Thine only-begotten Son, in Whose name we ask this
Thy blessing. For Jesus Christ's sake, Amen.